I have a very open adoption. I have an awesome relationship with the baby I placed and his family. I love the openness and I'm so grateful that his family has allowed me to still have a relationship with him. Every time I see him, I am reminded that he has such an amazing life. A life I couldn't have given him. His family loves him so much! I love him so much and I feel so blessed to be his birth mother. I know he will understand and know how much I love him as we continue to have a relationship. Adoption is amazing and has made me a better person. It's amazing how a birth mother and an adoptive couple can be an answer to each others prayers in two totally different ways.
When I hear the word birth mother, I feel a mixture of emotions. The song "From God's arms, to my arms, to yours" by Michael McLean, is a good way to describe the way a birth mother feels. The song is about a birth mother who is talking to the adoptive mom. She explains the emotions she goes through as she chooses adoption and how she feels deep within her heart that her unborn child belongs to their family. She asks the adoptive mom to tell the child how much she loves him. A few lines of the song that describe a birth mother's emotions are "If you chose to tell him, if he wants to know, how the one who gave him life could bear to let him go. Just tell him there were sleepless nights I prayed and paced the floors, And knew the only peace I'd find, was if this child was yours. And maybe, you could tell your baby, when you love him so that he's been loved before. By someone who delivered your son, From God's arms, to my arms, to yours. I'm just trusting in my feelings, and I'm trusting God above, And I'm trusting you can give this baby, both his mothers' Love."
Birth mothers love the children they place for adoption. Even though I miss him and think of him everyday, I wouldn't go back and change anything because he is where he is supposed to be and has a wonderful life.